Throughout all of my school years, I have striven to be perfect. Perfect grades, perfect attendance, perfect assignments, perfect employee, I wanted to do everything (that I was in control of) perfectly. I have never settled for less because I have always felt that if I am not doing things the right way, then I am not doing them good enough and I will let somebody. This has always come pretty easily for me; I have always done well in school and I have very few absences and I always turn my work in. With the exception of a few hard classes, I haven't had to push myself all that hard in order to achieve my goals. They just came naturally. However, things have started to change. Last year in Mr. Verver's class, I had an A- throughout most of first semester. It had me a little bit concerned, but there was never a doubt in my mind that I would be able to pull it up. Before the semester came to an end, I did just that and I was proud of the A that I had worked so hard to earn. This year in calculus has been my second struggle in school. It is by far the hardest class that I have ever taken. I have spent hours upon hours studying for that class, yet this time I wasn't able to pull it out in the end. As of today, perfection is no longer possible for me. The 4.0 that I have worked so hard to maintain is down the drain. Perhaps later on this will be a good thing, for it will probably give me a more realistic view on life. For now, though, I am simply disappointed.
Sorry Les, you can no longer make the comment "Sara has a 4.0." You will have to think of something else to say.
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Ditto on the perspective comment. I had a 4.0 for my first year and a half of college, but had a really difficult lab that I earned a B in during my 4th semester. At first I was really bummed; however, the next year it was a blessing because I became more focused on the courses and actually learning rather than being driven by the inane need to be "perfect." In the end, I graduated with a 3.87, which I am perfectly happy with! Perspective and humility are worth much more than the fragile pride that comes with "perfection."
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